So updates, let’s see… My oldest broke his arm and will get his cast off I think Monday. My 2nd ex husband was stalking my ex partner and ended up arrested, released on a supervised PR bond, lost his gun rights permanently, my ex partner has a permanent restraining order against my 2nd ex husband, and, oh yeah….. My no contact order was only during the divorce because they didn’t have proof of abuse.

Now let me be clear, there were a lot of reasons I didn’t report him. The biggest being he scared me and I watch too much true crime. The house was also a horror show and falling apart and I didn’t want to lose my kids because of it. So yeah, abusers are going to abuse and I just wanted to get away from him. He’s also saying some crazy things about me like that I was the abusive one and he has witnesses. These witnesses being toxic people I cut out and I mean, can we say DARVO? Cuz that is absolutely what’s going on here.

Anyway, I digress, I’m just trying to move on. I don’t know what’s going on with his court dates as my ex partner isn’t talking to me much which is fine. He’s also not doing the things he needs to for court, we will have a child support hearing because DHS is going after him for child support since I was on TANF last year. Which good, this man hasn’t done anything to take care of our kid since he went to jail and I understand that with his charges he can’t do much but he can fucking help me out financially. He’s also avoided me and his registration on the car he drives is 2 months out of date and I have the tags for him as well as the insurance but that’s his problem. I’m not going to nag him to take care of his shit or be a functional adult.

Just kind of reminds me why I left him if I’m being honest.

I’ve been MIA because life is fucking wildly busy. We’re short staffed at work, the kids have a lot going on with my oldest’s broken arm and all my youngest’s appointments on my days off. Which we’ll be changing his schedule with all that up starting summer so even more busy for us.

He was sick last night so my oldest stayed with his dad this weekend and I’ve been trying to be more present with the kids and slowly getting back into my hobbies. I finished a crochet project earlier in the week and immediately started a new one. I’ve also been cooking and cleaning all weekend as I always do. Took a bath today for the first time in a few weeks and the little one has been sleeping off and on all day. Something about he’s had a cough for a little over a week and threw up 3 times last night. Nasty business. I ended up washing all his bedding extra and the towels on top of our normal weekly laundry.

This is just kind of a quick summary of everything going on as I don’t have the energy to really get into it but there’s been a lot as my kids ADHD has been over the top lately and my PMDD/ overwhelm have been just in overdrive the last few days. I did find out there is a magic combination of over the counter drugs that can help with the PMDD though, a combination of allergy meds which I take daily anyway and antacids. Specifically fomatidine antacids which might be here once PMDD is over but that’s fine, they’ll help with the next bout of PMDD but it’s good to know that my issues have lessened partly because of healing and partial because of meds 8 have to take anyway.

Well that’s all I got for you today. Not much has changed. I’m still an exhausted trash panda and my kids are still as feral as I am. We’re busy but we’re doing okay. They’re still happy and healthy which is what matters to me. Until next time.