Busy Bees and a lot of Insanity

10/3/2025

Busy Bees and a lot of Insanity

Sorry to go missing in action again. I started a new job, court has been going still for the divorce, had the car get ransacked and someone tried to unsuccessfully hot wire and steal it. Had to go get a new one and a bunch of other shit happened. My youngest keeps scaring the shit out of the nanny which had to switch that two weeks into my job. Just a lot happening.

I’m trying to keep my head above water and it feels like I’m seconds from drowning but I’m trying and that’s what counts. Got a new car by some miracle and now I have car payments….yay… Still doing everything I can. The kids are happy and healthy. I just hope I can keep that up.

I was rearranging the living room, got some new shelves for the books and my decorations. The little got a hold of one of my books, so I’m trying to keep him distracted with papers I don’t need which is difficult. It’s turning into another paper massacre. I gotta figure out how to keep the baby away from my books but it’s difficult.

I like the new job but it’s difficult mentally. Draining and long days. I’ve been playing catch up on housework and so on during my days off. Again difficult but I try. I’ve been cooking still, weird that I actually find joy in doing so now but I do. Lost my food stamps and Medicaid but the kids still have their Medicaid thankfully. I still have TANF until the end of the year but fuck bills are draining my account.

So yeah that’s the update. A lot has changed but life is still stressful and I’m still hanging on by a thread. Until next time.

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Welcome to my version of a support group. An anonymous blog about surviving anything wild your life throws at you. This blog is a combination of commentary about women in media, how they relate to real women today, and a memoir of my healing journey after a major life altering event, finding out I’m being cyber stalked, and getting hit with everything and anything a person can be attacked with. I use media and dark humor to help me cope and I love having discussions especially nerdy media debates.

I’m a newly single mom in my 30s, sultry and salty, I have two children and the mouth of a quick witted sailor. What can I say we use fuck like a comma in this house. My story is filled with trauma, pain, what sounds like a grim dark thriller side plot, and funny enough resilience, beauty, love. So what was my solution to the suffering? Create an anonymous blog to share my story and keep my identity secret from my stalker as long as possible.

I want this to be a safe place for the unsafe; the neurodivergent, victims of abuse, sex trafficking, painfully introverted people, those who did their time for their crimes and are still treated like trash, the wrongfully accused with life in prison, innocent with no one believing them and their days of freedom long gone.

That being said, I will be flinging satire and dark humor at you like the abuse my ex so wonderfully shoved down my throat. When you live like I have, the darkness becomes armor the humor an addiction you can’t ween off of, it becomes your coping skill and I don’t know about you, I love it.

This memoir meets commentary is going to be going into some of the media I love the most, the things that feel like they are coming true right now, that I relate to most as a woman on the edge. I think most of the women in child bearing age range can see how the Handmaid’s Tale is becoming a patriarchal wet dream turned reality nightmare with Fascism on the rise.

So I am here, offering a hand to those drowning, feeling alone, saying Welcome to my Freakshow, all are welcome here, as long as we can be respectful of others, no hate speech, no bullying, no soliciting. Feel free to stay anonymous or shout your name from the rooftops. Abusers will be immediately banned, I don’t tolerate that behavior, don’t ruin it for others.

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