I ended up needing to take a few day hiatus, my kids were feeling a little off with the weather changes, their allergies acting up, and there seems to be a small bug going around, nothing worse than a cold. It is making my children needy as hell though. It’s a lot for a single person, but I think I did alright. I had some errands to run yesterday that I ended up putting off until today, something about I have a ton of things going on and I just didn’t feel up to par with my daily laundry list. It was a compromise for me, with my children were cuddled, fed and clean. That’s all I really cared about.
I’ve been none stop go for weeks until I crash out for a few days and start again. It’s a habit and pattern I am trying to break, though that is one that doesn’t feel possible. My body likes to break down at random but I can’t exactly pursue SSI these days. I’m “too young” to need it so I work the best I can around it. Hence trying to work from home when I can over the last few years. Though I do great at hybrid desk jobs as long as I’m no working 50 hour weeks, which lets face it I’m a workaholic. Even when I don’t have traditional work, I do something with my time around the clock. Lately, I’ve been feeling like A. Ham with my none stop writing and creative ideas, with the snow storm over the weekend, my tired ass needed a break.
It wasn’t just that, i was doing research for a few projects I’m working on over the weekend while I rested and had one if not both of my children in my lap at every given moment, so it felt. I was lucky to make dinner last night with them all over me. So a few days of rest, which were still productive, I had phone calls and errands I still had to deal with but mostly it was me and my kids resting and recouping from the past couple months of crazy.
I don’t know who else needs this reminder; it is okay to rest my lovely, the world wont stop turning because you took a day to rest and get your mental faculties back in order.
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